Homesick

I have had some really tough days lately! I'm really trying to keep my head up and be strong, but I have been having a really hard time. I'm obviously happily married, and thankful for the situation I have, my wonderful husband, family, the house I have, the jobs I'm earning, etc...so with that to say...

I love my 1 friend I have been able to hang out with so far, she has been such a relief for me to have. She has been so sweet to me, and has kept me company and showed me Oxford and for her I am very thankful. In another way, it is so hard after living with or near my best friends for four years and have friends around every summer, and come to a strange place where I feel like I don't really fit in is really difficult. People are different, it's culturally different. I'll get used to it, and it's not necessarily a bad thing, it's just different. It takes time, but I won't be in school meeting people, so meeting people with similar interests is going to be more difficult but not impossible. I will be happy to meet some wives of law students, but I also want some friends of my own if possible. I realize that this just happens, but as my sister informed me today, the first year out of college is really difficult.

I have been struggling with a lot lately, and I think a lot of it comes from home sickness. As I was explaining to Madison today, it's hard to not have a home to go back to with my mom and my dad together in a place that I've spent time in. My dad is selling the townhouse (which I hated anyways) and he moved to Normal and is renting a house near his girlfriend and is doing consulting. It's really difficult to think the next time I visit my dad, I will be seeing a new place. I have lived a lot of places, but Michigan still seems like the most home place I have, although we no longer have the condo or our house I had from Jr. high on. It's just something I need to come to grips with and realize that I can't change it, but I can try to be positive and happy.

I miss my family & friends a lot, and familiar places. I miss having so much in a close proximity, and I miss being only a few hours from all of my extended family except my dad's parents. I think most people go through this, but I just hate the feeling that at any moment I could burst into tears (and many moments I do). I know I will be fine and get used to it, but it's just a super hard adjustment. I know I'm where I'm supposed to be, and I know if I were in a different place I would be just as sad and confused...I'd appreciate your prayers and thoughts, I am trying to pull out of this but it's only getting worse at the moment! I have faith that it will improve soon.

There are also aspects of Oxford that I already love (like I posted in an earlier post) so I don't hate it or resent moving here, it's just a huge adjustment!

I don't mean to be so emo, but I just needed to be honest with what is really going on - it wouldn't be a true blog otherwise!
Liz